Friends

I have several friends in my ward. I like them all. We all have kids about the same age.

Half of us live in a more up-scale neighborhood, the half live in a not-so-up-scale neighborhood. I'm in the latter. I don't live int he ghetto, by any means, but my home is about 50 years older than theirs.

About 4 of them (who all live in the nicer neighborhood) do a joy school. I was actually invited to participate in it, but decided to do a traditional preschool instead. I regret that decision for a few reasons, one of which I will address.


They all have become exceptionally close. Which is fine, it really is. But on more than one occasion, I've called to get together with one or another of them. They say, "Actually, we're already going to insert place, want to come?" I say sure. Then I get there 30 minutes late because that's when I was originally planning on getting there, and I find all the women there with their children.

This has happened on more than one occasion. It's just become apparent to me that they have regular get togethers outside of joy school. (One of the women who's been there isn't even part of the school, but lives on the same street as all of them.) I understand that they are all close. Two of them teach a primary class together, another teaches another class, and the last is the secretary. So they see each other all the time. But I'm pretty close with 2 of them. I just wish I got invited to their things. Maybe they're just trying to keep their numbers small. Or they discuss it throughout the week and simply don't think of me.

I just wish they would. My kids are the same ages as theirs. I'm the same age as the moms. We all have similar backgrounds and educational levels........I just regret not doing the joy school with them and entrenching myself in the group. I'm as stylish and funny as they are (at least I like to think so!), so what's the deal?!

Gosh. It sounds like I'm talking about the popular kids in high school. And they are most definately not like that. They are all so sweet and fun. Never snooty or condescending. We've had dinner invites, and I watch their kids every now and then. We are friends. I just want to be part of the informal playdates they do.

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Weight

I went to the doctor the other day. I discovered I'm about 20 pounds heavier than I want to be. And I don't want to be 98 lbs. I'm as heavy as I was at 6 mos. pregnant. This is not good.

Once my child is out of preschool, I'm going to use that money for a gym membership. I've tried working out at home, but it just doesn't happen. My kids stand in front of the TV or change the channel or turn it off.......just doesn't happen. I was walking with a friend last summer. We walked about 2 miles every morning......nothing. I didn't notice a lick of difference. I don't have a scale at home (maybe I should get one?) and my clothes weren't fitting any differently. After 3 months of walking!! What is that?!

So annoying.

I'm excited to go to the gym. I've never really gone to one before. But now that my husband thinks he's going to get fired, I'm thinking I should probably save that money, right?

BUT I DON'T WANT TO!!!!! I WANT TO GO TO THE GYM AND LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jobs

Husband came home yesterday and said, "I think you may need to look into finding a part-times job to hold us over after I get fired."

Oh. Great.

He's just got too much to do at work. So much, that details get overlooked. Then they come back and bite him in the a**. He told me that his supervisors (who work in a different state) ask him, "So what is it you do all day?" (Like like being a housewife, no?)

He honestly thinks he's going to get fired in the next few months. And he doesn't have his degree yet!! He's like 3 credit hours away from being done. Almost 2 years ago, he signed up for online courses. And just didn't finish them. He got busy, and I honestly forgot. And here we are, two years later, still without a BA.

For the first few years of our marriage, he was working for a pretty successful complany doing client relations. They had a position open up in the headquarters that he was perfect for. But because he didn't have his degree, they couldn't hire him. I've mentioned this more than a few times -- that he needs to finish those last 3 flippin' hours and send them his resume.

He thinks that the opportunity is long lost. But the people there loved him and I highly doubt that they have forgotten him. But the longer he waits, the more likely that is.

It is so frustrating. He's freaking out about losing his job, but hasn't done anything to secure a further future.

He's a great man. Instensely loyal. A marvelous teacher. Highly intelligent. But he's lazy and has a low self-esteem. (Which you would never guess about him.) He feels like he has no talent -- no marketable skills. He'a great teacher, but doesn't want to teach high school the rest of his life. He might enjoy teaching college more, but that would take more schooling which he's obviously not a fan of.

It's just so frustrating.

Babies

I've finally convinced my husband to get my IUD out. We talked about it last Sunday, and I made the appointment Monday morning. It was done by Wednesday. I didn't tell my husband about it because I knew he was still kinda hesitant about it. Last night I did tell him as we were cuddling on the couch, and he immediately scooted away from me. It was in jest, but there was also some truth to it. He was kinda scared to sleep with me because of it. Great.